God, I need you to be female.
I need your nurturing presence,
your mothering energy.
Males can be wonderful.
I love many of them,
I am married to one of the best,
and I am raising two amazing ones.
I know we are all made in your image –
male, female, all points on the gender spectrum.
We are all created by you,
we all reflect your glory,
and no human trait is limited to one category of person.
I know all this.
speaking for myself in this moment,
I need you to be female.
More and more,
when I see you referenced as he
it is jolting, jarring, wrong.
A splinter, a crack, a rough place.
She is not perfect either.
But you have been male for so long –
we have prayed to Our Father for so long –
can you please be female for a while?
I need the feminine aspect of you.
I need your tenderness,
I need to see your beauty,
be awed by your creative energy,
feel your generative strength rise within my own body.
I need to see new birth, God,
and I need to be born.
Only you can birth me safely
into the new and wondrous form of your choosing.
be with me,
hold me close to your heart.
Pour your strength into me
as I walk my path,
ever being born,
in companionship with all the other loving ones
patiently waiting earthside
to welcome your peace.